Sunday day 7....

WEll, this will be short and quick, sorry.
I have ben cig free all day!!!!! I am proud of my accomplishment, but couldnt do it with out all of you and your support. This is not the end of that though. I still have to get past all the cravings and be strong. My meals weren't done right either. we had gotten up late so we had brunch in place of breakfast and lunch. I had 2 eggs, 4 bacon, 3 silverdollar pancakes and coffee. And it was also grocery day and on grocery day we get a pizza from walmart so that we just toss it in etc., but i only ate 2 slices and i had red skin potato salad, for some reason its like a tradition, that is what we eat and if i forget the P salad it isnt the same. lol. Well, that is all for now I hope everyone is enjoying this I will be back later!

A beautiful day great weather!!!!

Today was a good day for me. Sorry Mandi!
I walked the big loop around our house and the barns....5 1/2 TIMES!!!!! The first couple of times Jake did them with me (he had to leave and go do more work) Kaitie did them all with me. Did the stairs for just a bit but heels started hurting something fierce! OMG the made me want to scream...Okay, I did scream. Did some research and I believe it may possibly be Plantar Faciitis. Its been hurting like this for over a year and keeps getting worse. But when you have no insurance, your pretty much up the creek.......
I ate cold cereal late in the morning,lol and for lunch I had EGGS LOL. 2 eggs and toast. for supper I had Grilled chicken and alfredo sause on those spiral noodles, hey noodles are noodles and they were really good. I made sure I made enough for tomorrows lunch. And of course the tea and coffee. mainly tea, working on gallon #3. ( Im not the only one drinking it,lol).
I havent smoked today. I took a drag off of Jakes and it gave me a headache and didnt like the taste of it. really happy that even though i had the urge it is just something to keep my hands busy. I dont really want them and I keep telling my self that. The smoking blanket is coming along rather nicely lol. I am proud of what I was able to accomplish today. I even made sidewalk chalk art with Kaitie on the front porch. I am hoping that this week to come shows some results. Its all going to be okay. Must stay possitive.

Day ?? what day is it?

NO DIET today!! Lots of activity though! Bleaching and Pine Sol all day long. Went to park and played with kids for a while. Alli almost got a concusion this evening. I had to call Childrens Hospital in LR to make sure she was ok. She got hit in the face with the back of Justin's head! Bloody nose and sleepy afterwards. She is okay for real. Finally started my period!! Hallelujha!!! Woooo hooo...dont mean anything good for me. Marital problems....will deal with in time.

Friday...day5...

First thing......I want to say I am sorry for your pain, Mandi, School friends and family and for Her husband. Today was a sad sad day. I didnt know her, but I have certainly heard that she was a wonderful woman. May we Keep her husband, family and friends in our thoughts and prayers and May she rest in peace. She will not be forgotten.

Today was not as hard as I thought that it would be. I have finally quit smoking as of earlier today. I smoked 4 cigs!!!!!!!!!!! I crave! dont get me wrong, but I am done! Mandi you will too. Today is just not your day to do it.

I at my cereal(cold) got my calcium in, i had my coffee and tea all day. I had a tuna salad sandwich today, yes, again. I had some left from yesterday and Im not a waster. Besides it was easy to make. Supper is pork (Jakes cooking).
I did the stair thing, (so tired of it, feet hurt really bad, yes i am whining!) Went outside for a bit and also helped stack a rick and a half of wood.

Worried about Mandi, you have enough stresses. Worried about my sister, who isn't coming over this weekend after all. They had a prowler out at their house last night. Worried about my neighbor and friend Tria and her son Keith ( who has Leukemia) and that they will be okay. Worried about my husband who tried to re break his nose with a crow bar and i think he did,It looked straighter, working on the other neighbors car. I worry about so many things and today has been more so than most, but that is okay. cause if I can worry about it and keep from smoking at the same time then i am strong enough to deal with it.(A piece of fudge from Mandi helped,lol)

I didn't realise that caffeine interfered with the break down of fat. hum....... I gave up DP for Tea which is worse?

I am craving something fierce!!! I want a really big big juicy Whopper from Burger King!!!!!!!With a Route 44 Sweet Tea from Sonic. But tonight Its pork chops, hum....

Tomorrow will be a better day. I have to go crochet for a bit... Have a great night.

Day 5---CRAP!!!

Two eggs and bacon and grapefruit for breakfast. Perm, Sets, haircuts and whisker removal...lol. Lunch-----uh-----ok I will be honest. I had 16 oz. of hot chocolate made with milk...and marshmallows. About 245 I had 2 1/2 tacos from taco beuno and a very large plus sized dr. pepper...so good I even ate the flavored ice!! Took Alli and Logan to the doctor and well Logan has bronchitis again (need to quit smoking around the kids) and Alli has left over croup. One on antibiotics and both on Alahist for congestion. Logan is back on the nebulizer. :( He weighed 28 pounds and Alli weighed 38 pounds.

Dinner I had scrambled eggs, 2 biscuts with gravy, 2 sausages and 2 peanut butter waffles with light syrup. Does it matter that the syrup was lite?? NO! I couldnt help myself! HORRIBLE DAY! I didnt go to the funereal of a former classmate because I didnt think I could mentally handle it. She was such a sweet girl! Going to miss her dearly.

Cant wait for Monday to get here!! Dr appointment at 300 and kids go back to school and ELECTRIC gets shut off!!!!!!!!!! Woo-Hoo!! Gotta come up with $85 quick! Anyone need their hair done??? lol.

Tomorrow is disinfection day here at the house! Windows, carpets and laundry! Sunday will be disinfection in bathroom and kids room. Mopping and sweeping, dishes and countertops, tiles and carpets, washing and drying, wiping and scrubbing, yelling and screaming, kicking and hollaring!!! Sounds like fun---right?

Will get back on track soon. I still am not sitting around snacking and drinking sugar tea!! I am using sweet and low and allowing myself 2 cups a day. Since caffeine interfers with the break down of fat! I have started working on my 1st pack of the 6 pack on my stomach!! LOL I feel it getting sore...tighter??...wore out??...buffing up?? Dont know, It is doing something that is for sure.

Guess I will go to bed now. Going to have bad dreams...I feel it! Because I didnt go to the funeral. I should have went. Thank goodness it was a closed casket funeral. I heard that from Holly. I was worrying about that!

***Salvation Army Thrift Store in Fayetteville sells Small and Large exercise equipment CHEAP! Weights, bikes, treadmills, ab things, leg things and more. The most expensive one I had seen there was $20.***

Thursday-4th day

Well, cant say I was as active as Mandi, but hey I think its great she is as active as she is. It encourages me to keep pushing.
Sorry Hun, I know today was very hard for you on top of all you did at work by keeping "moving" and doing hair.
Today I had coffee and a bowl of cold cereal, shredded wheat,(No added sugar). I had 1 very dry tuna salad sand. for lunch. So dry had to have two glasses of tea to wash it down. Trying to get the omega's,lol. For supper had left over Spaghetti. 1 serving! and no not the whole plate. I had one of those tiny cups of ice cream (40 calories) for desert. And all day I drank Tea. That is the total of my intake today. I had to force that down as it was. Wasn't in the mood to eat, but knew that I had to.
I did the stair stepping as far as exercising went. Cramping so bad today and flow too heavy. Sorry I know its gross to hear, but that's the reality of it all. Just part of life.
I did the normal cleaning, but unlike Mandi, I give up after doing something 3 times in a row in one day. At least I know I will have plenty to do tomorrow.
Kaitie is still sick, It seemed like she was getting better, until this evening. We tried to work on our letters but coloring took over at some point. She is sneaky like that.
Jake got his truck fixed HALLALOOOOOOYAAAA!!!
I need ankle and wrist weights. I don't have room down stairs to put in any big equipment, Kaitie's not allowed upstairs and doesn't always take long enough naps or any naps for that matter. I have been working in the office most of the day, getting everything cleared out from last year and ready for this year. Woo Hoo, so much fun.
I may have my sister and her 6 kids over for the weekend so that will keep me busy. Won't know until tomorrow. That will help with not smoking. She is allergic to the smoke and some of her kids have asthma. I have smoked 6 cigs today and I will be cold turkey come morning. Dear Lord, please help my family understand I still love them that it is just nicotine withdrawal.
This morning I was sooooo tired, felt like my eyes were open all night. Its the tea, am going to the bathroom so much at night. But at least I am pushing the fluids out and hopefully more than just that. Water weight sucks.
I snapped at Kaitie. Poor thing, it was 7am and she stared me strait in the face and said"get up and feed me I am hungry!" AT 7AM!!!!! She ate 2nds at supper the night before in spite of the drainage crap. I feel another growth spurt coming on and we just got in to the size 6's. Thank God Mandi brought her the box of clothes! At this rate she will be 5 ft tall by first grade! Shes already close to 4ft tall at 3yrs.
Tomorrow I plan on doing the eggs and bacon. I have thought about doing the all protein diet. Not sure depends on if she tries to get me up that early again. (Yes I know its not really that early, but for those who know me, you KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)LOL.
Good Night, Hope everyone has had a great 1st Day of the Year!

day 4

OMG!!! Two eggs and two bacon and 6 oz. grapefruit juice....blah! BORING!!! I bet the passers by think I have terrets syndrome!! All the stretching and crap I do as I drive! lunch 330 calorie french bread pizza and tea sweetened with sweet and low.....yum!! grapefruit juice...yuck. Ran up and down the stairs at work 5 times each...thought I was going to have to ask for a wheel chair!!!! Then I walked the entire area around the city hospital!!! Hello asthma!!!! Did 10 heads of hair today...yeah!!! After work went to the visitation of a former classmate. SAD! I cried and cried. Dinner I had meat loaf and spinach and also the stupid black eyed pea rumor!! Doesnt matter how many freaking black eyed peas I eat my luck never changes!! Now I have heart burn!! I had a sip....ok ok.....a gulp ..... or two....ok 20oz of dr. pepper today!!!!!!!! YUMMMMMY I havent had dr pepper for like 5 days! Soo good! Ok back on track now. So...I think Logan has another ear infection. He has been throwing up due to bad cough and screaming! I know he is cutting two molars but I think that it is his ears. Will call doc in morning. Debating wether to go to funereal tomorrow. Want to but need money. I could push my appointments to afternoon but if Logan gets an appointment for the morning or afternoon I will have to miss one of these events for tomorrow. BUT Logan is more important!

Yesterday I ate all 3 strips of bacon!! DANG IT!!! no will power!!